Memoirs of a Trichotillomaniac

Dunbar, Kristy. 5'0''. Dark brown hair. Dark brown eyes. Born in Vietnam, Currently resides on the American Eastern Seaboard. 15 years old. Artist. Cinematographer. Student. Daughter. Sister. Friend. Lover. Trichotillomaniac. Human.

So.

Being in and out of the mental hospital give you a skewed view of things.

Small matters become big issues:

The other day in the hospital we were all sitting in the group room just chilling when this girl Keilani asks if we can keep the shades up because when you’re in the hospital its nice to see the sky. Suddenly the room is in uproar because everyone disagrees on this matter. Most people want the shades down because if they’re locked inside they don’t want to see outside. I’m not really sure what to make of this but I’m sure its significant as to why everything gets infinitely more sensitized and blown out of proportion while in the hospital.

I am going away.

Sometime in February, I am going to go to a long term 3 month treatment center in Wisconsin, where I will be treated for my depression, anxiety, and eating disorder. I still do not know what to think.

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Progress pictures…

The first was the pulling after only a couple of days…. the speed is just amazing when it triggers :(

The second is after her hair trim and the hairdresser did her a nice low ponytail and she had some new clips to feel pretty…. which I tell her she is every day by the way, bald spots included

This is my ‘hawk. the sides have grown out about a centimeter (my hair grows fast, save for the patchy areas) and the top part has grown back completely. I’m really proud of myself :)

This is my ‘hawk. the sides have grown out about a centimeter (my hair grows fast, save for the patchy areas) and the top part has grown back completely. I’m really proud of myself :)

I can do this too whooooo fishies

I can do this too whooooo fishies

nyahhhh LOOK WHAT I CAN DO.

nyahhhh LOOK WHAT I CAN DO.

Oopsies.

I gave myself a mohawk. ACCIDENTALLY.

Okay so I was giving myself a haircut with electric clippers and i started on the sides. I forgot to put and attachment on so in one spot, I was bald in one spot (because all I need is another bald patch amirite?)! So I was like ehhhhhhh and decided to give myself a mohawk again. fortunately, the hair in the bald spot before is grown in so that I have a FULL mohawk! I feel special <3